March 2012
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Let's get one thing straight
I am not a dependent person. I don’t necessarily need anyone there for me to pick me up off my feet when I fall because I am a pretty damn self driven person. That being said, if you want to walk out of my life, feel free to do so because I won’t stop you. I already have the close friends I know I can count on, so it doesn’t really make it that much of a loss for me if you decide...
Perhaps I made my decision too soon. A lot of things have been happening that is making me rethink what I thought was set in stone for a while now. I’ve thrown out the factor of who I’m trying to please, and just focusing on my own decisions, because frankly, I shouldn’t give a damn for what people expect of me. Contemplations once again.
February 2012
26 posts
Shaun Evaristo: JUST THE BEGINNING →
Nothing says success like Shaun Evaristo. This is why I’ve always looked up to him as a dancer, and a human being. This story single handedly inspired me so much more to improve, and taught me that to always chase your dreams at full throttle no matter what anyone else says.
“I knew that no one else could live my life and so even though moves could be similar here or there, my intention or reason behind would be completely different from anyone else.”
-Shaun Evaristo
Lowkey getting tired of working to satisfy other people. Sometimes, I just want to do the exact opposite of what they want from me just to prove a point that I’m not living to satisfy anyone but myself.
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I'm so through with being "average"
Now that I know what I need to work on, time to set the bar a lot higher.
This week was definitely one of the more difficult weeks. It’s hell week for 909, midterms back again, never-ending projects, extracurricular activities, meetings, etc. Not going to lie, this week was filled with many disappointments, and I can only try to keep my head up thinking positively for so long before I start losing my sanity. It also doesn’t help that certain people notice my...
I need to get it together.
celineyv:
I have higher expectations for myself.
Highkey hurts not having your support especially when I need it. Disappointed is an understatement in how I feel about you right now. Of all people.
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My childhood is a lot more complicated than most people. My family wasn’t always something I enjoyed to be around, or liked to bring up in conversations. The relationship I had with my parents; Far from close. I’ve been a pretty damn independent child for as long as I can remember. & here I was, thinking that things were never going to change…
Up until recent, I was lost. I...
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I’m so much better than this. Why should I settle for second rate when I can have the best? Can’t stop, won’t stop.
andyfuckinguyen:
Sometimes, I’ll just stare at the screen and think, “Man, I don’t even know what I’m doing with my life anymore” I’ll feel the discomfort of letting time go to waste, and still do nothing about it.
I always tell myself, “It’s just one of those days. Don’t worry about it too much.“
trishisms asked: You must be doing SOMETHING right to get people to hate you. And it's usually because you do what makes you happy instead of caring what others think.
I am not an avid texter
I’m the kind of person who always has something to do. Hardly will I ever be sitting around with nothing on my plate. That being said, I’m the kind of texter who looks at a new message, only to put it down for the time being expecting to get back to it later, but facing reality, I’ll more or less forget about it. If you are someone who I consistently text back within the time...
The busyness of everyday life has been catching up to me lately. It didn’t occur to me how busy I’ve been until I got comments, texts, calls from my friends back home saying that they miss me and that I’ve been so MIA. I feel bad, I really do, considering these people consist of my girlfriend, and close friends who I love dearly. I love these people with all my heart, and it...
Clearer Vision
It feels as though I’ve been walking onwards wearing a blindfold. Where was I going? To be honest, I don’t know. I just wanted to get somewhere where I thought I’d be happy, but walking blindly doesn’t do the heart or mind any justice. I had a deep talk with James and Trish last night, and they helped slowly take the blindfold off my eyes. I began to see the direction I was...
I am not a quitter. If I start something, I will go through with it until the end, no matter how hard it gets, or how much I start to detest it. If you don’t like how things are going, continuously try to make it better. Not happy with where you’re at, work harder to get to where you want to be. I lose respect for the people who quit without really putting up a fight, because the way I...
WatchThis beautiful, little girl is so precious.
Step back from reality
The number of errands I had to do today consisted of me going near home in Chino Hills. I was extremely hesitant when debating whether or not I wanted to drop by, just because things haven’t exactly been the best in the home environment, but I thought it wouldn’t hurt if I paid a quick visit. Walking in and seeing the surprised, overjoyed expression of my family’s face as I...
Repetitiveness
I feel so absent from the party scene these days. I haven’t had the crave to go out and drink, and I turn down parties back and forth without a moments hesitation. I remember reading a post my friend Rae wrote a while back about this topic, but it didn’t occur to me how relevant it was until recent. As much as I say I’m down, it’s always the same shit put on a loop. In the...
January 2012
39 posts
Style
Style in all senses; Whether it be physical appearance or in the arts, your specific style is what depicts you for who you are. It’s getting repetitive seeing this monotonus trend of people adapting to only styles that are in the current hype. Where’s the originality? I feel like it’s so difficult to find real creativity these days.
That one song
That one song that seems as if it was pulled out from the very pit of your emotions because its relevance is just too precise when being compared to what you’re going through. I took that one song and did something I never usually did; dance straight from my heart. I wasn’t pressured with the impression that I had to dance to impress, but rather just dancing for the sake of me....
I'm not much of a small talker
I don’t like generic conversations where I feel forced to talk to you. I like conversations that flow without the need to really try and force out redundant words where I’m obligated to not reply with a one word response so I don’t sound like an asshole. Don’t try and make small talk because you feel like you HAVE to talk to me. Actually WANT to talk to me, because more or...
For there to be betrayal, there would have to have been trust first.
-Hunger Games
Teammates
Today was definitely not my typical kind of day. I got a chance to bond with my teammates more than the usual. We spent hours on end, just being in each others company, talking about anything and laughing about the most stupid things until 6 in the morning. What caught my attention the most was how humble they were. Talented and confident at what they do, but still know how to keep themselves...
The greatest victories are the people we meet...
The later it gets
the more annoyed and irritated I become. I’m not going to lie, ever since coming back to Riverside from winter break, things have gone from shit to worse. Things have been feeling so different around here to the point where I’m easily annoyed by the simplest of things. I’m not going to say I don’t know what the reason is, because I clearly do. Lowkey though; Fuck.
raelavyrle:
Sometimes I wish my dreams didn’t feel so real. Those are the ones that I remember the most. But its not just remembering the dream, it’s that feeling of knowing that it never really happened.
Don't Strive to make your presence known. Make...
I hate when something is bugging you
jtanross:
And you can’t do a damn thing about it. Sure you can distract yourself with other things to get your mind off it, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t still there. It’s like you have to pretend it’s not there until it disappears or fixes itself. It’s hard to pretend all the time. Sometimes you can’t stop thinking about it and it ruins you, like poison. And you might even try to do...
WatchI can’t take it anymore!!!! All these new clips <3
Something new
I’ve made a few dance pieces, but for my next piece, I want to try something I’ve never done before. I want to forget about the world, and just focus on nothing but the music, and me. I want to portray every bit of who I am into that piece; my emotions, my feelings, everything that I’ve been feeling and keeping in, I want to show it all. I want to make a piece that solely...
If you don't want people talking about your life
then stop putting your shit on blast. You can’t complain that people are gossiping about you when you put your life’s story on every social network known to mankind.